There is always an intricate line of faith & confidence between who you are & what you try hard to be or ought to achieve from your life,
which if snapped lands you in the midst of just no-mans land.
This thursday was just another sunny day in Scotland, a perfect catch for those canvas shoes & the football crazy guys….
Yeah, I was one of them this time, perhaps it was a tad too uneasy for me with my defending & striking skills,
I too donned the shorts this time & walked into the Goals Soccer Grounds, it was gonna be a game of football after a long good break of 6 years,
so flying kicks the air, rolling on the ground & the football swooshing pash my legs wasn’t something that I didn’t expect, but what commenced was a lovely game which made me demanding for more once it ended.
Not to forget that I had some really supportive & talented colleagues : Kamran, Jim, Ricard, Matt, Alan etc who didn’t make me feel out of place despite the near misses & flying kicks in the air 😀
I couldn’t quite help but laughing at myself noticing the ball going in the exact opposite direction.
As always every football match has its “side-effects” which is nothing new, we had a player down in the first minute in an ankle sprain from a tackle, but it didn’t seem quite one of the guys to give up Kamran was back on his foot & blazing away with the ball.
The other casualties did exist like Richard falling on his wrist over me trying to defend the ball without me noticing him from behind. 😦
Nevertheless, it was an hour of amazing sports with laughs here & there and some good sporting spirit.
I finished off without much ado not scoring even a single goal despite having a close shave at almost three direct hits & did pretty well defending the goal by getting battered by the ball a tad too often :D.
The match ended on a good note, with our team losing by a goal ( 5-4 ).
All went good for a match after so long for me, just hope the Richard’s wrist get’s well soon before he comes with the ball or bat 😛 after me 😦 hehe…..
Looking forward to a many more matches & getting back my much lost footie form in the weeks to come…
“Rome wasn’t built in a day neither would I ever become a Messi Overnight” hahaha 😀
Clogged roads, honking traffic and a sea of umbrellas fighting through,
It was a usual busy rainy Saturday we are so used to.
Grumbling away at the messy sidewalks, a quick swear at the arrogance of the taxi driver,
A lousy day at work, messy wet clothes and a yearning to reach home faster…
How often have we cursed our stars through the day
How often has it been so easy to just give up and fall to depressing routine so easy a prey
Sipping through a mocha at a wayside coffee shop,
I watched the bustling city chug away past showing no signs to stop.
My mind sifted through thoughts of the monotonous moves of life,
Rain or no rain, every day continues to bring with it its share of strife.
And then I saw her toothy smile as she held onto her mamma’s hand and past…
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A rather sunny day out as I sip my cup of coffee in the cafe,
Do I feel the subtle silence all around or is it just the silence that echoes deep within ?
I know I have said things, done things I just don’t mean, but just never did the restraint ever fall in,
Never did choice govern spontaneity at the heat of the hour & it was mere temper that played the villain always ,
Yeah, I did eventually prove & achieve what I yearned for..but all at a cost I won some I lost some, but there wasn’t a moment that the scars of the losses didn’t hurt
The pleasure of wins did always motivate the step on the mountain despite all the broken anklesThat was yesterday I never doubt why it was or how it was but I did wonder why there never ought to be another time,
Today I relate the calmness of the water in the sea to my state of mind & realise the Choice is always mine & there is no second chance, “You either Burn it or Let It Burn You”
The Silence, Solitude & my Soul has always been my companion through the Fall , But now even the RIse seems incomplete without them…
The World of some beautiful people & children, I see just fade in & out as the light shines across the glass.
That’s what I have earned after all this, some call it the conspicuous beginning of the end.
But I say the Beginning is still far far away, that the power of my self-belief
Regardless of how calculative, subdued, or promising the world calls you, the Ability to Rise in Your Own Limits is still bestowed deep within you…”This is your Today” !
In your arms do I find the world so complete.
Although such memories are just so obsolete
All feelings of pain, sorrow or joy get new meaning
As though life’s happiness has discovered a new beginning
I exist in you, my soul is you, my every thought is You
Your faith & Love is the power that attaches me to You
You are my timeless & most valuable Reason to Life…
So, guys/gals go fall in love,
True Love gives life a whole new perspective… 🙂
A minute of silence, a glimpse better not shared, two hearts that couldn’t beat harder or feet & hands that went cold …
These are some of the very words which describe every moment when you can’t just let them go away from.
I never seem to understand how complicated things get, but when you actually land up in a situation when the odds just fall against you, whether its time, distance, the sequence of events combined with our “essential crazy Ego” (which we always regret) that you throw up the shields in your defence.
The years of Love, Care, Understanding, Oneness all crumble regardless of how deeply engraved they are.
Agitation which is the quickest defence of the human mind takes guard & in the rage of Words which may not pay any heed to, we End up destroying the Castle that took years to be constructed brick by brick.
The Pain maybe considerably negligible at the moment when you last held their hand & called it a day, but what may subside in the minutes, hours , days & years to come will be so dreadful that they question your existence till the moment you breathe you last.
The Words of a heavy heart :: “May you always be happy in life & may the charm of your Smile blow away the tears that may ever come”, “May the day of night pass by, I will always wish you prosper” & many more …..
It maybe easy to weigh each word, each sentence , every phrase spoken in some sad sombre moment, but later in the darkness of solitude those very words echo like a trumpet ,making you guilty of every action or reaction ever made or words ever muttered to them. There won’t be a hand to grasp in the hazy storm that you have been life in standing helplessly.
Believe it or Not , deep within you some people really implant a seed of Trust, Belonging, Worthiness that regardless of being a partner, a best friend, a brother or a sister, they are , will & always be inseparable from your life
However much you want to deny it… !!! so never be too late that you need to pay the price of regret some day or lifelong.
If you can Never go ahead & get your handy dirty in the filth
Just don’t keep blabbering of What Could be & What Couldn’t Be,
Stop being the Coward Within You & try walking out of the Solitude.
Negativity. lies, ignorance & expectations are all attributes of Proving your Weakness & the FEAR deep within you….
The Ray of light breaks out from the dull & dreary confines of the overcast skies hoping to rise above all.
Little does it know that there are a million hearts out there would look upto it to see what may come of it.
I always believe how much ever I say that I leave the sequence of events to destiny but deep down there’s always a small molecule of faith in the hope of goodness.
Some small feeling saying that something good is expected, whether she would say yes or whether I would get the job or will the bad times shy away soon…
Wishes :: they are numerous of them
The fact is that every sign of hope is just a seed implanted in our subconscious mind for our deepest desires from time or the events preceding the inevitable.
Its always never too late to start believing in “Yourself”, boost your morale, self-confidence & face things the Way they come…rather than live in the anticipation of miracles to happen when your Heart knows they may not…what has to happen will find a way to happen someway another despite trying everything to change it.
Remember there is always light you can see at the end of the tunnel & there is always an oasis you spot in the desert…
But take some time & think its always for you to decide before whether the light is an illusion or the oasis was only a mere mirage…
Strangely ironic at times isn’t it? …
The desire to enjoy the delicate pleasures of life begins when you begin looking for the pieces which assemble your life in your own backyard.
You realise the relevance of those pieces when you eventually discover that in your quest for dollars you never noticed how you could use the run-down Mint behind your backyard…
Small coins make up a Note, but we fail to realise that the little pleasures in life eventually give us what we define as Happiness & Joy
So go ahead & be the child in you…
S*M*I*L*E & see the World anew everyday